Hello Friends,
On July 1st, I celebrated my native country, Canada's, birthday. We call it "Canada Day" (formerly "Dominion Day". We celebrate our freedom and independence from the British Empire.
On July 4th, I celebrated my adopted country, the USA's birthday, and our freedom and independence of the British Empire.
July 4th was also the first day I walked into "My Group" for support and was welcomed but still felt under a weird kind of emotional ruling empire that has been keeping me bound, enslaved and chained from truly being ME.
And now, Your Not So Skinny Wedding Concierge is here today, July 7th and it is A GREAT DAY!
After listening, reading and having a very risky yet positive experience with many good friends, including those who know me superficially, those who are learning to know me very well (in and out of "My Group"), I walked into a meeting today. As we each shared a reading and commented on how that reading pertained to us (it would reveal itself to us as being the perfect thing we needed to read/hear), my turn came up. And sure enough, it was. I don't remember what it was exactly now but I know in the course of a millisecond I believe I had this silent conversation.
I said, "G-d, my higher power, my creator, who made me in your image, endowed me with all my talents, all my abilities, emotions, strengths and, especially weaknesses, I just can't do this alone any more. Please show me what to do to help myself get back to me and be an even better me than I can be. And in that silent millisecond he did answer me and he did tell me what to do because the next thing I knew, I got out of my chair, stood up and said out loud...
"Hi, I am Tracey and I eat COMPULSIVELY!" It was so quiet I could only hear my own heart pounding. I felt like I was in the middle of a stop-motion, freeze-frame scene in a movie where it's silent, no one is moving, including me. And then it happened. A rush of movement; a whole room full of people who hugged me, cheered for me and sang congratulations! I lit a mental sparkler for myself to mark the occasion.
I truly feel like I have celebrated my OWN PERSONAL Independence Day!!
As you have all figured out by now, my blog started back in time on June 30th but today, July 7th is the actual birth day of this blog.
So I am going to light another sparkler (feel free to light one with me if you like) and wish myself a "Happy Birthday & salute my health and prosperity as Tracey, "Your Not-So-Skinny Wedding Concierge". Today I AM Born, Today I am Free, Today I AM Independent! What are YOU Today?
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